I seek knowledge today. In a classroom amongst other students. A different form of education than what I am used to. Though I doubt this class will satisfy my current hunger: a hunger for the knowledge of life and the whys and hows of it all. For example, why do people do the things they do and if they ever really know why. Or, if it's possible to truly understand another person, or even oneself. And why someone keeps dumping chickens at the end of my Mom's driveway... Oh, the quandaries of life. :-)
And in this pursuit of knowledge, I wish I understood it all. That I possessed the kind of wisdom that could answer my questions. Even just one.
And on the flip-side, I wish I didn't understand people as well as I do. That I couldn't see through the superficial games people play in an attempt to hide the substantive information underneath----the real stuff. The need for power. The need to hide feelings. To protect oneself. To take things out on others rather than recognizing our own issues and truly owning them. And I wish I wasn't so human in the fact that I sometimes play these games, too.
The human condition is so full of ambiguity. Sometimes I wish to be something else----- it seems animals are free to act upon their needs and show their true emotions. None of the usual human self-protective games and sidestepping the truth that is such a part of the human condition.
Nonetheless, I truly am of the human variety with all the flaws that come with it. So, I seek knowledge. And even though I may not learn the answers to what I seek in my classroom today, I will learn new experiences through interactions with more humans.